I just run out of expressions some time. This has been a hellacious week. I return from a great weekend with some of my boys down in Biloxi, MS on a bachelor party trip, to what now has become an awkward week.
It all started late last week when my grandmother (granny) was rushed in to the hospital. She spent all weekend there, and wasn't released until Tuesday. The doctors say she is going to be ok, but I assure you that when anyone is rushed into the hospital at the age of 89, you tend to worry … a lot.
Monday I found out that my old college girlfriend, Meghan, got engaged over the weekend. Honestly, I was taken back at first. Not because I missed her but just because she was an important part of my life and now she is creating a family. If anyone doesn't know the story, I broke it off. I wasn't ready for the commitment that she craved. Meghan is a wonderful person, and I know she is happy now. I could not be more thrilled. I've always vowed to keep in touch with Exs, because they were important enough for me to date … why not be important enough for me to follow their life? All the same, Meghan becomes yet another ex of jaylowe's to get married. I won't tell you what the count is, cause you won't believe me!
So last night was a big "ugh" … someone once told me, "there are a lot of 'Oh wells' in life." The phone call from UGA telling me I didn't get the job I was seeking there has become an "oh well." I didn't let myself get excited about the position too much. I hate the feeling of being let down. So I didn't get too pumped up for this job, but could easily tell it was something that would be good. Something that would give me my next step.
It didn't work out. Sure, I was upset. But as the lovely Mrs. Jennifer Grant says, "it all happens for a reason."
Of course, I have no idea what that reason is. But it'll come. I swear I am a confident person … but geez … I should be next in line at Burger King for the 99-cent quarter-life crisis.
No fret. Jaylowe will land on his feet. Thank you EVERYONE for being supportive and a good friend. I'm sorry if I have seemed somewhat removed lately. I've really been trying to focus on my career. Maybe balance of the two is the key.